MewTeeA’s Writing

Mood: almost crying (sad)
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I really don’t know where I should go in this point of my life.. Seriously.

My
parents say that I should continue wif my school, cuz if I get a job
first, I might not get a chance or might not want to go to school
again. They want me to get a Masters, and that’s what I’ve always
wanted. Finishing my Master’s degree at a young age, seeing how proud
my parents will be (taking a peek at Kappa-chan’s blog) yeah Kap, it’s darn hard being the oldest child..

But
then I see my friends who, even tho they say they’re not a pure
Computer Science student (like they feel that they took the wrong
major), 1 of ‘em is realllly good in Flash and designing stuff (what I
meant here was Irine..
aku iri..) I wanna be like that.. but I just don’t have the talent. Yes
it is interesting learning to use those designing softwares (Macromedia
Group: Flash, Freehand, Fireworks, Dreamweaver), but..I just can’t seem
to really2 get a hold of any of ‘em. I remembered taking an IQ test
back in Hi Skul (it was mandatory fer evryone) the test said that I
wasn’t Creative, Creative was one of the personalities included in the
test. That came to me like a boomerang. Oh noooo…. I’m not creative..
How can it be? I’m so stressed and f***ed up I can’t even think.

Anyway…now
I’m confused, either to take a Master’s degree or to get a job first.
But then, if I get a job, I don’t know what skills to offer, except for
my English speaking, reading & writing skills. The greatest
position I can hit is a translator in a local TV station.. that’s if..
they even see my CV. Yeah..I got a lotta Organization Skills, but I’m
just not confident enough in myself. And speaking about talent, the
only talent I see is talking and music, as in I’m a very talkative
person and I LOVE music since I was verrryyy little (listening to music
& playing it, I even made up some songs & poems, but I haven’s
got the music to it yet, just some singing there). Oh yeah, another
thing is, I love kids. I was even thinking of teaching English in a
pre-school or elementary schools since I really like kids, and the
funny thing is, the kids stick to me like glue. It’s like I’m some kind
of a "kid magnet". This is probably something that descend to me from
my grandma, my mom said dat her Mother was also a "kid magnet". Kids
just love to be around her, yeah..I used to work in a day-care center,
and the kids enjoyed my company. 1 kid even wanted me to go home with
her!

That’s why I’m soo confused..

If I were to continue my study, what should I take for my Master’s degree?

If I were to get a job, what job should I try to take a chance on?

AAAARRRGGGGHHH….!!! I can’t take it anymore!!

A copy of my Reply to an e-mail from my campus’ mail-list:
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WUAHAHAHA…. So funny Andryan you..! Me thinks she..uh…
smart…uh… very..!!

huaaaaa…memalukan ntuh orang! Mending maen pilem berbahasa
Indonesia aja deh si Nadine itu, or juz keep on modelling…I mean
modelling doesn’t make it necessary for her to talk. Me thinks she’s
an airhead.. (T_T);

-Mutia-

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Andryan wrote:

    On 7/12/06, Tommy Harland wrote:
    check these links:

Transcript of Interview
    The Video Clip

AHAHAHAHAH.. very smart she, I sure will win she.
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Surely…I feel embarrassed as an Indonesian because:

1. Nadine (as Putri Indonesia) CANNOT speak English correctly! Even I don’t know what in the world she’s saying. My friend said, she might’ve learned English from Star Wars (aka Yoda) ^_^;
2. Nadine participates in Miss Universe, like Artika last year, got protests. Dat’s b’coz Miss universe involves a session where all contestants are in a swimming suit. Artika last year used a 1-piece swimsuit. What’s worse this year (other than her English prob), Nadine chose to wear a 2-piece (aka bikini), while in Indonesia (before she departed for the contest) she promised that she’s gonna wear a 1-piece, to represent Indonesia. And anyway, Indonesia’s version of a beauty pageant does not show a helluva lotta skin… nope… no way.
3. Nadine is an airhead. *period* She prob’ly thinks Indonesia’s pretty small, cuz in the interview she said dat "Indonesia is a beautiful city".

Any other comments from you? You should check out those links above in this entry… You’ll see how much of an airhead she is. And no..I’m not writing this b’coz of jealousy. If u ask me if she’s pretty, yeah she is… I juz can’t get myself to say that she’s smart. Unlike previous Putri Indonesia (Dian & Artika) and also the 1st Miss Indonesia (Imelda Fransisca), these people ARE SMART AND BRAINY! Imelda and Dian can really speak English fluently!

You know…after watching the video clip of Nadine’s interview, I was thinking of dubbing for her. So she’ll be lip-synching to my voice… Abissss,,,bahasa Inggrisnya ancurrrrr banget bangeeeetttt… She got a bad conduct of English.. *bleh*

huff.. Pak SBY mungkin bisa dibilang Presiden Bencana kali yee… Sejak pemerintahan beliau, udah brape banyak tuh bencana di Indonesia? Dari Nabire, Aceh, Yogya, Sulawesi (klo ga salah ya, yg banjir itu ya? correct me if I’m wrong), truz sekarang Pantai Selatan Pulau Jawa, Jakarta juga kena… gempa, tsunami, banjir, dll.

Pusing kali yee jadi Presiden hari gini…

Moga2 pemerintah kita bisa cepet aja meng-handle situation yg terjadi sekarang ini, dengan bencana di mana2. Seharusnya our government should’ve learned their lesson from what happened before.

May Allah SWT bless those who passed away and give strength to the families having to go through all this.

Do any of you know the anime named "Beck"? Beck is about a band named Beck (no duhh) or

the other name is Mongolian Chop Squad. It ROCKSSSS!!!!

Last Tuesday (July 11, 2006) my bro and I went to PIM, and on the way home we passed by

Q Corner.. It’s a Anime Rental store. Gw ma ade udah sering lewat2 tp ga pernah masuk,

baru kali ini.. wuahhhhh..surga komik en anime en J-dorama…!!! Pendaftaran gratiz!!!

Cuma kalo nyewa bayar (biasa), tp klo kita mo duduk disitu en baca hanya daftar aja ga

pake duit.

But on that day, I borrowed Ouran Koukou Host Club the Anime (eps. 1-10). And then,

last Friday, when we went there again, I borrowed some CDs. Perfect Love 1 & 4-8,

Gokusen eps.5, Love Generation eps.12, and Beck eps.1-26 (this one in DVD format, so

all those episodes in 2 DVDs!). And on Sunday my bro and I finished watching Beck…

…..

Dan gw terharu!!!! Pokoke, kalo suka anime yg Shounen & suka musik.. u HAVE TO WATCH

Beck! Lagu2nya enak2 lagiiii….

Dan gara2 anime ini (Beck) gw jadi tergugah tuk main musik lagi, hehe ^_^; setelah

sekian lama I never touched an instrument, padahal di rumah ada guitar, piano & violin!

huehehehe…. Sekarang gw lagi belajar lagunya Beck yg "Moon on the Water" dan "I’ve

Got a Feeling". The latter one is originally sung by The Beatles. And also because of

this song, I’ve fallen in love with The Beatles’ music again ^_^ hue hue hue…

I’ll upload some of the songs of Beck later on… juz like in entries before, when I

say later on…. it is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy later.. haha..
Or you can just go to:
http://spawnist.multiply.com/music/item/82
or try finding it with Bear Share application.

I love "Moon on the Water"!!

Blok S kebakaran! Tapi tempat jajanan deket lapangan & rumah gw gak knapa2… Dari tadi pagi brisik banget..with all the firetrucks passing by. I don’t even know where exactly the fire is happening. But there’s a helluva lot of sirene sounds!